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"And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free"

John 8:32

"The most important thing flags or banners do, however, is mark victory. It is well understood that the conquering army in any battle has the right to remove the defeated country's flag and replace it with their own, usually in the highest spot possible for all to see. The country with the conquering flag has won and now they are in control."

Dad! Dad! Dad!

I am so excited about You & the things You are doing in me. I love the fact that I am being gutted out so I can contain Your glory. I don't necessarily like the process, but please continue. The end result will be well worth the hassle. Character building... the fact that I am going through it brings me great hope. I am so expectant in terms of my future. I love you LORD. I ask that Show me how to be, tell me how to act & respond. Give me meekness, patience, temperance... a quiet and gentle spirit, because I know that's precious to You God. If I must speak, I want it to be only what I hear You telling me to say for a particular moment. Let me only speak rhemas directly from Your mouth. Help me tap into Your realm, the prophetic realm. Remind me to humble myself & strip off my flesh so I can be completely spirit-led in every activity of my life. Allow me to be so God-conscious that I don't get offended by implied insults & indirect "correction". I want to see with Your eyes, Father. Let me not seek my own vengeance, but rather to see the hurt behind the ones who try to hurt me. Let me be a beacon of hope for everyone, especially those who seem to be my "enemies". I know that no human being is my enemy because I wrestle not against flesh and blood but rulers of the dark. Help me to bring every thought captive to the obedience of Christ and not let my imagination wander & roam feeding my flesh. I want to love beyond borders of agreement. Let me stand only for justice & refute the lies the enemy tries to cloud our sight with. I know that Eve was tempted when she looked at what was forbidden for her & thought it looked "good" and harmless, so remind me to keep my eyes on You. May I see things the way You tell me to view them. In You is no contradiction, so if I stand by You I won't contradict myself either. Help me to put all my cares & worries into Your hands & rest beside the still waters with You. O LORD, my God, my Strength, my Banner! You said when the enemy comes in like a flood that You would raise up a standard. I'm not sure how that translates particularly for me, but I do know You are faithful to do it, and that it will work together for my good! I love You oh so much Father! I thank You in advance for the healing that will come to Your people because we have humbled ourselves and prayed. You promised that You'd hear from heaven, forgive our sin & heal! Thank You so much! I am relying completely & totally on You now. Make Your answers clear. Show us a portion of Your might and strength by breaking the ties and chains of darkness in our lives. Wherever they may be (whether we see them or not). Forgive us for being wicked in our living by not consulting with You & acknowledging how we really need You for EVERY... SINGLE... THING! Cover us with Your banner LORD; I love You, and I thank You in advance!    

Luv,

Li

Just a Thought =)

Thank you...
      So much....
           For everything...
        Seriously...
      Amen!

A Journal Entry (Tues Nov. 16, 2010)

"'I love thee, O LORD, my strength. 

Psalm 18:1'

Good morning Love. Just wanted to jot down a quick letter of praise to show my love for you. I appreciate all that you've done and am exceedingly excited about all that you'll do & are doing in & through me. You're the best LORD. Thanks for Your love, for being my strength. For being willing to step in & handle things when I can't. I love the way You talk to me, Your so gentle yet stern. I need that, I need You! You're special, terrific, magnificent, majestic. Your lovely & precious. Nothing in this world could ever  add up to Your worth. You're worthy! I'm honored to serve You. Thank You for adopting me & befriending me. Thanks for receiving me & giving me a garment of praise when my spirit gets a little too heavy for me. Thank You for Your Word & for constantly [& consistently] whispering instruction. Thank You for not smiting me me when I don't listen to You, but You are always patient& giving me another chance. Thank You for allowing me to fall sometimes so I can learn from my actions, thank You even more for being there to help me up after every fall. Thanks for correction & chastisement because I know it is another expression of Your undying love for me. Thank You for wisdom & understanding and for giving me the grace & mercy to operate [& learn how to operate] it more accurately. Thank You for Your honesty, thanks for salvation. Thanks for eternity, and that I get to spend it face-to-face with You. Thank You for natural families through blood and also extended members (through faith). I love You LORD & I really want to to say thank You for being such a great Father. Thank You for being You!

Luv,

Li" 

Everything I've Wanted in A Dad

My devotional today:

 Make a list of everything you want in a father.
Then go back to that list and put a check beside every one of those qualities that you see in God. (source: girlfriendsingod@crosswalk.com)


Caring
Kind
Thoughtful
Insightful
Wise
Strong
Protective
Encouraging
Accepting
Proud
Supportive
Loving
Understanding
Honest
Protective

Thank You Lord for being everything on this list and more! =)

My answer

Now we exhort you, brethren, warn them that are unruly, comfort the feebleminded, support the weak, be patient toward all men. See that none render evil for unto any man; but ever follow that which is good, both among yourselves, and to all men."

2 Thessalonians 5:14-15

Thank you for your quick answer. I pray that You would give me strength, wisdom and understanding as I attempt to walk in the way of Your will.

Wise Counsel

"But the Counselor, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you."

John 14:26

Dad,

This is Your promise to me. I need it to be fulfilled right now. I know that You are not a man that You would lie, and that Your promises to Your children are always yes and amen. I believe, so I'm expecting to receive according to my measure of faith. I will read Your word in search of counsel on how to deal with the situation I am facing. I know You won't disappoint me by not answering me, because Your love is mighty and can do anything BUT fail. Thank You for staying true to Your word and honoring it above Your name. You really are the best. I ask You humbly for a rhema. I love You. In Jesus' name... Amen

Keeping Your Commands

To Phos Tou Kosmou [The Light Of The World]

This is the message we have heard from him and declare to you: God is light; in him there is no darkness at all. If we claim to have fellowship with him yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live by the truth. But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin.  

1 John 1:5-7

Then God spoke all these words:

 ²“I am the Lord your God, who brought you out of slavery in Egypt.

 ³“Never have any other god.  

⁴Never make your own carved idols or statues that represent any creature in the sky, on the earth, or in the water.  

⁵Never worship them or serve them, because I, the Lord your God, am a God who does not tolerate rivals. I punish children for their parents’ sins to the third and fourth generation of those who hate me.  

⁶But I show mercy to thousands of generations of those who love me and obey my commandments.

 ⁷“Never use the name of the Lord your God carelessly. The Lord will make sure that anyone who carelessly uses his name will be punished.

 ⁸“Remember the day of worship by observing it as a holy day. ⁹You have six days to do all your work.  

¹⁰The seventh day is the day of worship dedicated to the Lord your God. You, your sons, your daughters, your male and female slaves, your cattle, and the foreigners living in your city must never do any work on that day.  

¹¹In six days the Lord made heaven, earth, and the sea, along with everything in them. He didn’t work on the seventh day. That’s why the Lord blessed the day he stopped his work and set this day apart as holy.

 ¹²“Honor your father and your mother, so that you may live for a long time in the land the Lord your God is giving you.

 ¹³“Never murder.

 ¹⁴“Never commit adultery.

 ¹⁵“Never steal.

 ¹⁶“Never lie when you testify about your neighbor.

 ¹⁷“Never desire to take your neighbor’s household away from him.

   “Never desire to take your neighbor’s wife, his male or female slave, his ox, his donkey, or anything else that belongs to him.” 

Exodus 20:1-17 [GOD'S WORD TRANSLATION]

Jesus replied, "'You must love the LORD your God with all your heart, all your soul, and all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. A second is equally important: 'Love your neighbor as yourself. The entire law and all the demands of the prophets are based on these two commandments."

Matthew 22:37-40 [New Living Translation]

LORD,

I appreciate the grace you've given me to see the need to walk in the light. Help me not to fellowship with darkness, and also not to shun those who do. Make me honorable by helping me to keep Your laws. Remind me to write them on my heart so that you won't give me over to a reprobate mind. Discipline me as a disciple. Teach me Your ways and I'll follow You forever. I repent for breaking your laws. I am prone to honor myself above you by investing my money, time and energy into the things that I want to do, rather than those things I need to do for You. Sometimes I sleep, when I should pray and eat natural food when I should read Your Word. At times I use Your name without regard for how Holy it is/You are. There is not a day that I set aside to only worship You. I go to church on Sundays, but afterward I usually do whatever it is that I want to do (i.e. watch a movie, go out with friends). I have not honored You in keeping the sabbath holy. I repent and dedicate every Sunday to You. I will do no work on that day, but will only feed myself with Your Word and submerge myself in prayer, that I may be more like You. I have not been completely honest when filling out my time sheets at work. I often add an extra 5 minutes or round up or down. That is considered stealing and lying and I repent and vow to be completely honest from this day forth. Please forgive me and give me a fresh start. I want to be right with You. Rid me of pride and animosity toward others. I want to be loving regardless of how people treat me. I want to be gracious and generous and win people with Your love! I surrender to You and Your Lordship and ask that You would be in control of my life at all times. Make me aware of the times I try to take the reigns out of Your hands and do things on me own. You are the vine, and I am only a branch. Without You I can do nothing! NOTHING! I can't hold a conversation, I can't have meaningful relationships, I can't even sleep well. It is in You that I move and have my being, and I am content with that LORD. All I need is You! You certainly are all I need. Help me to be a living example of that. Show me exactly how to walk worthy of the call on my life [as stated in Eph 4:1]. LORD, I want to look just like my Father. I want my face to glow w/ radiance so that others will look at me and know that I've been with You. Humble me and make me new. Teach me and show me how to impact Your people. Reveal the things that You've placed in me to be used to bring You glory to the earth. Highlight the desires You've given me that I need to move forward with. Show me Your glory. I don't want to settle for visitation of Your Spirit, but I need it to be an habitation. I need to abide in Your presence, please show me how to live with You on my mind at all times. Help me to think only on things that are just, true, lovely, pure, honest and of good report. Remind me to only meditate on Your Word... day in and day out. Let me be a living sacrifice to you and a testament to Your awesome holiness. Get me to the point where I can suffer gladly for Christ's sake without murmuring or complaint. Mature me Lord, and allow me to see that the work You started in me will not be completed on this earth. Keep me mindful of the fact that I will never be at the place where I can say I have it all the way together. Jesus was the only 100% sinless man, but I want to be as sinless as possible. Help me, lead me, guide me and allow me to only hear and see what it is that You want me to know about. Let me not draw conclusions based on fleshly analyzing. Make me embrace the fact that as long as I acknowledge that I only know in part I will be wise. Teach me to only speak Your words, because anyone who will try to use them against me will fail. Invade my heart with Your love and light. Thank You for listening to me, and thank You for honoring the requests I make concerning Your glory. It is in Jesus' most powerful and matchless name I pray. Amen

"Hey... Where's the cream filling!?"

Forethought (addressed to you [reader]):
A pure heart should be the center of our relationship with Christ. Not pure in the sense of never doing anything wrong but just being completely open & honest with Him and loving Him and wanting to truly do what He wants us to do. Respecting Him and honoring Him, just because He deserves that (at the least)!
Our honor should act as the soft, creamy filling at the center of your favorite doughnut or snack. The body of Christ seems to be missing it, and so there is just this evasive gaping hole! And God is not satisfied with us because His favorite part of the church (worship/relationship) is not there. I don't know about you, but I want to be the sweet cream filling that He enjoys!

The Lord said, "Because this people draws near with their mouth and with their lips to honor me, but they have removed their heart far from me, and their fear of me is a commandment of men which has been taught;

Isaiah 29:13 (World English Bible [WEB])

You hypocrites! Isaiah was right when he prophesied about you: These people draw near to me with their mouth, and honor me with their lips; but their heart is far from me.

Matthew 15:8 (WEB)

That all may honor the Son just as they honor the Father. He who does not honor the Son does not honor the Father, who sent him.

John 5:23 (NIV)

LORD,

I first apologize for "worshipping" You with songs and dance and words but without honoring You. Forgive me for the times when I set my heart on doing things for You without ever asking You or seeking how You would like for me to come to You. I repent, and vow that from here on out I will check with You to make sure that my offering will be pleasing and acceptable. I promise to follow Your guidelines for worship and not get caught up in what I want it to be like. Nor will I come to You only caring about You filling my emotional needs. Worship is a privilege, but I won't do it for just the benefits any longer. I won't "worship" You by asking You for anything. I won't worship You by complaining about my "needs". I refuse to "worship" You by making excuses for my self or my short-comings. No longer will I attempt to "worship" You without acknowledging that You are Holy and I need to be cleaned (by repentance) before I even think of stepping foot into Your presence.  It's amazing how we make so much preparation and waste so much time toiling and working up others and ourselves to give You faulty worship. We get trapped in our "it's all about me" mindsets and make lots of noise and get all emotional and cry and scream and roll around just to make a huge commotion and even bigger fools of ourselves. We involve so much of what we like and never think to consider what it is You require from us. We stain your altars with our filth. We touch your sacred things with filthy hands. We shoot praises from foul mouths that slander, curse and belittle Your beloved. We take the very thing that is supposed to be at the epi-center of our relationship with You and we trample it under our feet without giving it a second thought. We sit down to sing songs inviting You in and asking You to talk, but before You can open Your mouth to speak we leave You and continue with our daily routines. We support the very things and people that curse You. We feed ourselves with their words and check into what they are doing and look to them for advice and we love them and we lend more of our time to seeing what they are doing and saying than we even think of spending with you. It's offensive and I do not want to willingly offend our Holy God anymore. So I repent, and I pray for the person(s) who will read this. I ask that You would prick their hearts, even if it is calloused. I pray that You would turn our stony hearts to soft fleshy ones, that can feel You and are sensitive to Your leading. Make us sheep that know Your voice and will stubbornly refuse to follow any stranger's. Break our hearts for the things that break Yours. Give us an Holy Spirit lead urgency to seek Your face. To spend time with You. To enjoy lying in Your presence. Take us to the heart of true worship, where it's all about You Jesus! Humble us! Remove haughtiness in our lives. Kill our arrogance and pride! Move us to be moved by You. Lord, it's only by Your Spirit that we can even want to be close to You. Draw us Father. Woo us! Correct us and Discipline us! Make us Your true disciples, one's who will wait for Your instruction. One's who spend time with You and don't want to go anywhere without You alongside of them. Lord, make us want You more than we want to see souls saved. If we love You and follow after You then souls will be saved, but we cannot accomplish this by working backward! You and Your laws must be the apple of our eyes and the seal upon our hearts! Take us there, and make us fall so much in love that we'll never think of turning back! I love You Lord. I honor You, I bless You and I thank You! & Jesus, it is in Your name that I ask these things according to Your word [John 14:14]!

Father,
Thank you for forgiveness that was made accessible to us by the gospel. Please forgive me for not following your instructions completely.

Check MATE

Dad,

I was thinking today, and I really wanted to talk to you about my thoughts. First I'd like to say that I'm excited about my future, but only because it's in Your hands. Sometimes I wish You would let me in on more of the details, but I know You don't divulge too much for my benefit. It's a good thing not to know everything up Your sleeve, that way I know I can really trust You.

So, now for what I was thinking about. .....My future husband [but that's no surprise right!? lol]. I'm not anxious for one, but I'm sure he'll be here eventually and I just don't want us to mess things up when He finally finds me. Because of this I ask that You would break both of us completely before we even meet each other. Have us so that we know we are nothing and can do nothing without You. I pray that You would begin revealing to each of us how our pasts were designed specifically to help our future and also what You have developed (or need to develop) in us that is meant to help our spouse. Prepare us to be sensitive to one another's temperaments and grace us for the the ways in which we will irritate each other. Help him be committed, first to you, then to his family. Show both of us the true value of having an understanding family who loves despite short-comings. Make him responsible and show him how to lead a family and be so secure in his leadership that he isn't intimidated by suggestions that seem better than the ideas he comes up with. Give him a strong desire to be protective over what You entrust him with but not possessive. Let him recognize that everything he has is first Your's and he needs to treat it with respect [family included]. Give him discipline. Great discipline, and a passion to protect his and his family's integrity. Heal him from past hurts and show him the things in him that are not like You and need to be done away with. Let him have compassion toward women who may have been abused. Build his discernment and ensure him with all the gifts of the spirit. Teach him to "covet" the gift of prophecy and not to despise it [1 Corinth 14:39; 1 Thess 5:20]. Make him sure of his spiritual gifting, make him wise in his use of them and allow him to have an accurate perception on what it is he needs from a spouse. Cure him of all anxiousness in finding a wife. Allow to get to a place where he's so satisfied in you that he barely notices me when we first meet. Blind him of my physical appearance until after he You reveal to him that I am the one he is to marry. Give him an urgency to pray diligently for his [future] wife and keep us from meeting until we are ready for each other.

And although I've written all of this I understand Prov 16:1 [Mortals make elaborate plans, but God has the last word}, so I pray that above all my wants, desires and needs that You would do what You know is best to do and have Your way. Be glorified in both of our lives, forever!

Confronting the PAST

Well Lord,
[dun Dun DUUUUUUUUUN
....*audience gasps >insert pause for dramatic effect<
*random 'gulp' followed by an eerie shriek from a woman]
Guess it's about that time!
I always knew that every christian had to come to a point where they had to confront their past. I'll call it "facing the big plunge". But for some reason I never thought my day would come, and if I did sub-consciously accept this ideology, I never thought it would be as hard for me as everyone else. Foolishly I tricked myself into believing that the "growing pains" in my first years of college would ultimately be the climaxing struggle with my past. Oh, how desperately I wish that were true right now. That would have been a cinch!  ...Welp, I stand corrected. This by far is THEE most difficult thing You ever expected me to do. I don't want to admit that I understand why, but I have to. I can, however; admit that I need You. Direct me through this Lord. I think I may need Jesus Himself to come down and hold my hand through this one. It's so dark and taboo. I don't even want to touch it. I don't want to go near it with a 50 foot pole. I was comfortable forgetting about it... but forgetting about it is not the way to get healing from it. Hmmph! Difficult feats are rewarded greatly! ....Remind me of that please! I don't feel like going through this, but I promised You that I'd stick with You when I was felt like it and when I didn't. GIVE ME GRACE!!! Lots and lots and lots of it! Give me courage in abundance!! Lend me strength and boldness to get me past this point in my life! Mark me... "trailblazer, "curse ender" "broken vessel", just use me! Just use me! The more I realize that I don't matter, the easier it is to accept this call. This flesh is a beast, so daily help me slaughter it! Be my guide. I feel scatter-brained right now, so my thoughts and sentences are ping-ponging all over the place. Nothing is really flowing. But I am glad that I can come to You with my scattered thoughts and You'll help me sort them and show me what actions to take. But let Joshua 1:9 be my banner!  In Jesus Christ (My Redeemer & Friend) name I do pray [& plead His blood] AMEN...
By the way, I love the fact that I come to You feeling horrible and You literally turn my frown upside down! <<--Yea I know it sounds so cliche', but I guess cliche's are the defining character of love Lol... Love You Poppa =)

Sanctify me thru Purification!

¹SEE WHAT [^[a]an incredible] quality of love the Father has given (shown, bestowed on) us, that we should [be permitted to] be named and called and counted the children of God! And so we are! The reason that the world does not know (recognize, acknowledge) us is that it does not know (recognize, acknowledge) Him.
    ²Beloved, we are [even here and] now God's children; it is not yet disclosed (made clear) what we shall be [hereafter], but we know that when He comes and is manifested, we shall [^[b]as God's children] resemble and be like Him, for we shall see Him ^[c]just as He [really] is.
    ³And everyone who has this hope [resting] on Him cleanses (purifies) himself just as He is pure (chaste, undefiled, guiltless).

1 John 3:1-3

O LORD, our LORD, How excellent is thy name....

When I consider Your heavens, the works of Your fingers, the moon and the stars which You've ordained.... who am I that You are mindful of me!? Why do You love me? Why have You chosen to call me??? Why do you want me?? 

It doesn't matter really, all that matters is the fact that I am Yours. I appreciate this privilege. I am excited about where You are taking me and I thank You for showing me just how serious You are about me and Your people.I promise to honor You in the way I display and distribute information that You've given me. Help me keep my mouth closed about the things I am not to share and give me courage when I need to speak up! I trust that You'll lead and guide me correctly, however; I don't trust that I will always do as You would like for me to do, so I ask for extra grace to get me through the "trial and error" phase and ask that my season of exaltation will be preceded by a humbling season. Remind me that You are humbling me when I feel like I have done something terribly wrong. Remind me that my humiliation is only coming to prepare me to hold and keep the things You'll give me as a possession later. Never allow me to forget that it's only in You that I live, move and have my being so I won't forget to convene with You at the start of each day. Don't allow me to take on anything that will not benefit from my hands touching it. Stop me when I try to take on the world in my own strength. Show me how to guard my heart against the things the enemy will try to use to destroy me with. Let me know when, and if I'm just being "extra" or when I'm being to lax and coy. Connect me to people that have been where I'm going and can help with the transition. Make me effective. Teach me how to be direct an only say EXACTLY what is necessary at the right time. "Where You go I go, what You say I say, what You pray I pray." Make this statement true in me. I want to do NOTHING apart from You. Help me not to give answers until I have taken at least three days to pray and consider. Lord, I don't want to leave You out of anything, not only because I know I'll fail without You, but also because I know You want to be apart of my every decision made. Teach me how to live for You and I'll follow You and I'll love You all the days of my life. Father, Savior, Counselor, Friend, Companion, Lover, Husband, Provider, Protector, Brother, Healer, Atonement, Almighty GOD!!! I love You! Never let me lose sight of how I feel for You right now. I never want to go astray, no matter how horrible people may treat me, no matter what things seem to fall apart in my life. Let me always think on this overwhelming  joy I get from willingly participating in Your plan for my life, and the life of others. It's not about me, it never has been and never will be. As long as Jesus is the star of the cast I'm in! ...and I'll remain! Thank You for devotion, loyalty, and an undying faith that can certainly move mountains. Thank You for proving Yourself time and time again. Rid me of the obsession I have with pain. Show me how to truly let go of everything and everyone so that I'm free to cling to You, and You alone! =) Thanks Dad.... In Jesus' matchless name I do pray,

Amen 

I Finally Hear You...

DAD!!!!

I finally know Your voice! I can hear you Dad, I can hear You now! And I'm soooo excited! It's awesome to be able to hear and know Your voice, and to share it with other people. I'm glad You trust me enough to use me! I'm glad I went through not being able to hear You or feel You for a while. It was all necessary, and I knew that at the time, but now I actually see the manifestation and I am just OUTDONE! I'm so elated! You are the bomb! In fact, You created the people and resourses to make the bomb! Who else can say they accomplished anything like that.... NO ONE! Lol *sigh* I'm glad I can be myself with You. You understand me, mostly because You made me... I feel like a little kid, or one of those over-active chipmunks or squirrels on animated movies! Like I had too much coffee or something! But You make me burst over with joy! Your lovely! You care, Your kind... and merciful! You rock, like the pyramids they just found buried under the ocean! Lol

Help me remember this feeling when I start to lose sight of the benefits of following You. I don't want to lose this in my memory! I want to have it as a resource forever, because though I went through a lot of drama to get to this place... You were well worth it! I'm excited about seeing the lows and highs of this new-level journey I'm starting off with You on. Hmmmmmm, I'm amazed. I don't even think I could find sufficient words for the way I feel right now. I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

Encourage the people who feel that they have no hope, and even the ones that are contemplating ending their lives. Let them see that there is hope in You, especially when they feel opposite! Show them that life (with You) is worth living in the fullness of the ups and downs. Give them a little extra something to hold them over until the time has come for You to reveal Your glory in them!

In Jesus' name I exuberantly pray!

Amen

Written Aug 18, 2011

Despise not the chastening of the Lord, nor faint when thou art rebuked of Him. Heb 12:5

Saviour,

Thank you for saving me, not only from the grasp of the enemy & the penalty of sin but from myself & my own wicked desires. hank you for chastening me & getting me used to Your voice, which in turn helps me sound more like You. Your goodness is unfathomable & I am just appreciative of the opportunity to experience it! I love You! Thank You for grace & mercy, friends & fellowship, hurt & happiness. I am grateful that I am allowed to experience life & living by truly being made alive in You. Your love is amazing & incomprehensible. Help me be filled with that love, the love that I can't understand or offer any explanation for, other than it being divine. Help me not to be easily angered because Your love isn't easily angered. Make me patient and kind, because that's how Your love is. Help me not to respond or even initiate ungodly conversations or interactions. You are truly the best! Make me more creative in my ways of expressing gratitude to You! I have the absolute best Master ever! I never want to trade You for anything or anyone.

...Sometimes I feel like a youngbul, but I'm glad I'm Your youngbul :) You brag on Your youngbuls. In fact, You said that unless we become like a youngbul we can't enter Your kingdom.

Thanks for being a comforter, & I ask that You continue to allow me to have a bird's eye view of my "problems" & situations. Help me keep my focus on You & the things You are telling me to do & be.

Luv,

Li

Weight... I'm Resting!

If you are tired from carrying heavy burdens, come to me and I will give you rest.-Matthew 11:28 (Contemporary English Version)

The Lord is my shepherd. I am never in need. He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside peaceful waters. -Psalm 23:1-2 (God's Word Translation)

Dad & Shepherd,

Thank You. I love you, and today I choose to honor Your request for me to come to You and allow You to give me rest! Just when I'm drawing near my wits end You call for me to lay at Your feet, Your peaceful waters. I appreciate You, if it were not for You I would certainly have burned out trying to handle everything on my own. Thank You for not making me responsible for handling every issue that arises in my life. It's ironic that one day I'll look back on the things that I think are such a big deal and laugh at how insignificant they really are, and yet, knowing this I still can't seem to shake certain worries. But from this day forward I declare that it will change! As I lye down with You I pray that You would show me exactly how to let things go. How to let people go, and move on. Show me what to do with hurt and disappointment (or rather what not to do with it) and how exactly relax and let You heal me. Mender of broken hearts, that's only one of Your many names, and with You as my Source I need not look to anyone (or anything) else to keep me sustained. Thank You again, I love You and I'm so glad You never leave me! With all honor and reverence through Christ the Lord I pray...

Amen

                 

Embarking

"I will go before you and make the crooked places straight; I will break in pieces the gates of bronze and cut the bars of iron. I will give you the treasures of darkness and hidden riches of secret places, that you may know that I, the LORD who call you by name, am the God of Israel. For Jacob My servant's sake and Israel My elect, I have called you by your name; I have named you, though you have not known Me. I am the LORD and there is no other; there is no God besides Me. I will gird you, though you have not known Me, that they may know from the rising of the sun to its setting that there is none besides Me. I am the LORD, and there is no other." Isaiah 45 2-6

Yahweh Shalom (The LORD of Peace),

Thank you for another day. Thank you for your love and grace, thank you for forgiveness that allows us to tap into your presence  and receive what only You deserved... peace! Lord as I study and read more about you I am even more grateful for the fact that the Hebrew word for peace (which is shalom) actually means completeness, soundness and welfare. That has such a greater meaning than what I have known it to stand for in my ignorance. That is simply and utterly amazing to me. You are utterly amazing Lord! I love you so much! I am grateful because I was down but You lifted me. Thank you for holding me when I lose strength to stand. Thank you for accepting me back when I forsake you or get distracted and start looking at things other than You. I appreciate how kind and gracious you are to me, but I know that my appreciation comes from my awareness of Your wrath and how you are equally as destructive in Your righteous anger as you are tolerant with your mercy. So, thank you for allowing me to grasp the concept (and understand the fact) that I am deserving of continual death because I am not holy, perfect or blameless and that is Your general standard... I would fall short on any given day because even my righteousness is as filthy rags in comparison to an incomparable and uncorrupted God. My life is only spared because You saw fit to send Your perfect Son to live a perfect, sinless life and die, the way I deserved to so He could exchange my record for His when I die. It is only my belief and trust in this extremely humble and loyal occurrence that I am allowed anywhere near Your presence and I have the utmost gratitude as a result. Thank you for Jesus, without Him I would be doomed to an eternity of death. Always being in the process of dying and it never coming to an end. *sigh* That is so awesome and admirable. You are mighty but You haven't destroyed me! Hallelujah! The only God who allows His people to have relationship with Him instead of forcing them to do works and be "good" without them even knowing for sure if they will make it into heaven/paradise or not. But You, offer a way for us to be sure of where we are going once this life on earth is halted. You not only hear us, but You speak back to us. You have plans for us, You long to be part of our lives though we are so small and should be insignificant to You. I love you! I praise You! I am eternally grateful to you! I ask that you would empower me to spread this very message of hope and grace to the nations! Equip me with spiritual gifts that will crush Your enemies heads! Train me to be so keenly in tune with Your voice and move that I will use them correctly and accurately. It's in Jesus' precious, but matchless name I do pray.

Amen

Healing...

Heavenly Father,

I come to you in reverence of who you are! How great & powerful & marvelous you are & I am humbled by your presence. At the foot of your throne of grace all I can do is repent & lament & repent again. You are deserving of so much more than I give, or could ever give. I am sorry for abusing this privilege I have of unrestricted access to you by ignoring you with the notion of talking to you later, or when I'm done doing what I "like", or when I feel like being "bothered" by talking to you. It's an honor and a privilege to worship you & I vow to honor you more with my life. Thank you for understanding me and being there even after I mess up & walk away from you and do, say or think of ways to dishonor you. Life without you is miserable, and in my angry moments it's easy to forget that so help me not to lose sight of that truth. Make me mature enough to talk to you even when I feel like I may hate you. Continue to take things away from me if they get in the way of our relationship! I don't like the way I feel but I know you're producing something great out of my life. Forgive me for being ungrateful of my giftings and coveting my neighbors. Make me comfortable with being invisible & unnoticed. Don't deliver me from situations where I seem to be overlooked until I'm content with the fact that my identity rests solely & completely in you. No person determines who I am (myself included). Mold me to the mindset that I am NOTHING without you, so that in due season you can exalt me without ever having to worry about me trying to steal your glory. All honor belongs to you, gracious Father. Abba Father! Thank you for adopting me as your own & freeing me from the dark recesses of my guilt stricken mind. Remind me that I am a child of the Most High & that I am to walk like it at all times regardless of what emotion I am experiencing. Help me be gracious when I want to be violent! Make me compassionate when I want to be judgmental. Show me love. Real, true, unadulterated love.  Pure love, open my eyes to the truth about your love, & how you love me so I can love others in the same way. ...Help me! Please! I'm drowning in sea's of bitterness & self-righteousness & guilt & it's getting harder & harder to see you, or remember what you've taught me about myself & yourself. I don't feel you as a comforter, but don't allow me to forget that you comfort the heavy hearted! At times I can't see you as the Truth, Way or Light but don't let me cave to the lies that say you aren't. It's becoming more difficult for me to believe you're a deliverer who cares about me, but I know that you do. I want to experience you! & maybe that's the reason you've allowed me to let doubt slip through my foundation in you & bitterness to choke out the love you've made available to me. I know that this all was grafted into your plan, but the reality is that it still hurts! My will doesn't want to bend to yours, and I guess that's the reason you must break it... but it feels as if your smashing me into a billion tiny pieces, but if that's what it takes to get the job done, keep working... I don't like it, but I must need it so don't let me get in the way! This healing process feels a lot worst than the initial wounding, but if it'll bring you glory... continue! In Jesus' name I do pray.

Amen    

Today

God,


   Today wasn't such a good day for us. I found myself slinking into old habits. I let my flesh discourage me from feeding my spirit so I could feed it instead. I won't excuse it, but I also can't go back and change it, so I'll make the conscious decision to stop from here on out. But of course I can't do this without you, so I'm asking that you give me strength and a softened heart so that I can endure this type of temptation. Thank you for your grace that covers me on days like today. Sorry for damage I've caused that I won't even recognize immediately. I appreciate this relationship I have with you and I want it to be preserved. I want to please you in every way, and it starts with my thoughts. Cleanse them so I can have the mind of Christ, please. I love you and I thank you for waiting patiently until I was done playing games, reading status', & talking to everyone but you. Your patience, persistence & perseverance propel me toward the things that I should be doing. And lastly I just want to thank you for this life that has been given to me through acknowledgement and acceptance of your son, Jesus the Christ, as Lord and Savior of my life. Help me to be more like Him everyday. I love you, and it is in His name only that I pray!

Luv,

Li